Sequel to Yoga and Meditation -- what led me here

I am getting inspired with the thought of my journey that it brought me back to the earlier years of my life here in the US ( this is my 11th year) , where I first joined myspace.com and started my first online blog in that page... I would like to share them again...

Nov 1, 2008

In this life’s journey

Current mood:nostalgic

I am a wanderer------ the places I've been to, the people I meet and the experiences I encounter encompasses the totality of what my life is all about. For as long as I am living,I continue to learn and grow .My life has different phases wherein, in one way or another, I have come to cherished and loved. Good times, bad times, happy memories, sad ones, meeting new people,building new connections, letting go,tears, laughter.....This is what life is all about--without experiencing sadness, you will never know what real happiness is. I look at it as extending your own self to a situation or person with no boundaries, knowing that by doing so, you open up yourself to a situation where you are most likely going to get hurt. But hurt is part of happiness because life is not all about being happy,..its about being ready to accept the miseries that comes with it.

In this phase of my life, my journey is coming to an end... I could say that whatever it was and whatever it is, I am coming out of it as a more well versed person in some areas, more confident with my decision making, more logical and more balanced on what needs to be done.My life has other areas that I need to focus on to and there are still more doors waiting to be opened.Past will always be past but I don't trash them away, I fold them neatly and put it in one corner of my life. As a true Cancer, I never let go of things ----everything has their own special place in my heart---- Xoxo

I call myself  lost soul because I believe that the people we meet and get connected with have something to do with our past life .We clicked with someone because of the good vibes. Everyone that I have encountered so far had a great contribution to who I am today. The reason why I like meeting people, opening up myself to new environment, new places, new experiences, new traditions, new food--- name it.. I'm a lost soul because I still yearn to open myself up to different situations and different circumstances----for I know that there is more to discover out there--whether i do it alone, with my husband or with my entire family------ For now, I continue to open myself, Mind-Body-Spirit and Soul.........

Yoga and Meditation

I have come across this site online ( http://multiplefacets.net  ) that helps me get going with trying to "re- charge my batteries" after the weekend's activities so I can better function and start my week in a good and positive perspective...Which brings me to the thought of understanding,learning and doing yoga  and meditation in its truest sense...:-)

Ater all, I got myself into this after reading and watching the movie Eat, Pray and Love by Elizabeth Gilbert ---www.elizabethgilbert.com .... Here's an interview taken at borders.com , which clearly explains how the author wants its readers to understand what the book was all about... Its not taking her journey literally, ( if it does not really apply to you) but in taking your own journey according to your own specific needs. For those who are not much of a book reader and still lost out there, maybe you can take the time and check this out.. See if you can relate to it in some ways because I know it did to me... Tremendously!!! Ive been "lost" at some point of my life and was trying to look for meaning .... Took me years to finally realized that there is one person, who is also a cancer sign like me, in another time and another side of the world who is also experiencing some kind of a dilemma  about what she really wants  and what gives meaning, happiness and purpose to her life.....And that's why she wrote this book...

Getting my momentum back

The first and last time I composed something was close to two months ago.. It seems like a long time but it only feels like yesterday. So many things had happened and for one, summer vacation finally ended.. We all had a blast with the sun, the beach, the park,... and of course, all the freebie concerts and movies that came with it.To top it all , my hubby and I got the most unexpected gift when one day, I found out I was pregnant!!!! Whoa!!!! After all these years of thinking about adding a new addition to our brood,it came when we least expected it ,, :-)-- Kids were a little iffy and happy about the news too  ..;-)
What followed next were days of excitement, anticipation, cravings,mood swings,unholy hours of going in and out the bathroom, etc. We waited patiently for our first MD appointment to make the official announcement only to be disappointed and heartbroken when the final day came......They told us that they could not find the baby's heartbeat!!!!! My mind was racing with disbelief, wondering how in the world it happened , when all the while I had 2 beautiful healthy kids...But then again, I have to consider a few other factors like my age (40.... thats right!! ;-) and the like... Our NP/MD told us to come back after a week.. During this time, 80% of the time I was hoping for a miracle and the other 20% was agreeable to the thought that God must have one good reason for this.... As the days go closer, me, hubby and kids are already more and more prepared for the result.... This time, when they told us that our baby did not grow at all and still has no breathing, we accepted it with our full faith in HIM.. They scheduled me for D&C and the rest is  history but will always be a memory in our hearts and mind...At this point, we know we have a little Angel watching over our family...

These photos are only a few of the many family  pictures we took for the summer. Today, I am back to writing and sharing my thoughts as my world moves on from one day to the next.......